Part of me is very optimistic the other part of me is saying don't get your hopes up, this could just be another one of those dangling carrots sent to submarine your self esteem. Conflicted is an understatement!
What is going on you ask? Well I answered a Craigslist ad for a baker position in New Braunfels. I got an email back with information on the restaurant and what they were looking for and if I was still interested. A few more email vollies, and I had an appointment to bring samples of cakes, pies and pastries. I spent most of Monday shopping and baking, went to bed around 2am. I popped out of bed at 6:30am and jumped in the shower, got dressed and boxed my goodies.
What transpired next was a bit surreal. As the owner of the restaurant and I were chatting the subject of Cupcakes Divine came around. I told him the whole sorted story, and he was amazed that someone would have bailed out on me with such a solid concept. Now here is where it gets really good. This location has an area of the restaurant that is a soda shop set up with a small icecream freezer where they sell BlueBell, an old timey soda fountain, a coffee shop selling Seattle's Best creations & most importantly A BAR COUNTER complete with the twirly stools reminiscent of the 40's & 50's. He was exstatic about incorporating the cupcake bar into that set up. Next he is talking partnership plus working for him to bake his pastries & pies for his restaurant. He already had reserved a section of the restaurant to remodel into a bakery kitchen separate from his restaurant kitchen and has an idea of cutting out the wall behind the bar as a pass through window from the bakery kitchen to the bar area.
I am afraid to climb up to cloud 9, but it is welling up under the surface. But the fear is, if I go that high, the fall, when or if (in my experience it generally is the when) it happens will be life shattering for me after all I have gone through in the past 6 months. I just don't think I can take another blow. No I KNOW I can't take another one.
So if you are a praying person, please say a prayer for me that this is for real, and is going to stay that way. That this is the opportunity God had waiting for me, but I had to go through all that other crap to get here. I am trying so hard to trust him, but the burn marks are still very fresh from the earlier crashes & burns.